"I'm glad that Bryce Larkin is dead...

...and isn't in my bedroom making out with my new girlfriend."
Ow, my hip hurts. I saw last Monday's episode of "Chuck" last night and it was really good. Bryce is really hot, and I wish he was in more than one episode. Besides the pilot. I hate Anna, though.
More books for the list.
10. "Dairy Queen" by Catherine Gilbert Murdock
Summary: 15-year-old D. J. Schwenk joins the high school football team to her father's chagrin.
Lol, I love cows. And I was obsessed with Brian for a long time afterwards. The sequel, "The Off Season", is just as good, if not better.

11. "The Princess Diaries" by Meg Cabot
Summary: Mia Thermopolis finds out her father is a prince, making her a princess, and learns to deal with the changes that follow.
The rest of the series sucks (it's really good up until #4. Or maybe #6, because #5 was pretty good.), but this book cracks me up. I want combat boots.

12. "Home of the Brave" by Katherine Applegate
Summary: Kek, a refugee from Sudan, comes to Minnesota to live with his aunt and cousin and learns growing up isn't always easy.
I just finished this book today, and it's written in poetry format, so it's a pretty quick read, and Kek is hilarious. Oh, and he likes cows.

Yeah, I'm a little obsessed. I read like 4 books today. We skipped church because it snowed again. But then the stupid rain came and had to wash it all away, so there's probably going to be school tomorrow. Aargh, I HATE Washington. HATE it. I'm either going to move somewhere where it doesn't rain or snow or somewhere that snows every day, but doesn't rain. Is that even possible?
Do do do do. Ugh, I reread "Avalon: Circles in the Stream" and it was a painful experience.
I think Family Force 5 counts as Christmas music.

14 hath gone too far

Aaaargh. My day really sucked. I got a 69% on the math test. Dude, 69%!!!!! Ugh, I was so mad. Then I get to band and we have to do like 5 freaking worksheets on counting that were really tedious, and I drew a picture of liberated hamsters.
I've been in a bad mood since last night. I finally just got really tired of how emotional my life has been lately and some of the stuff that's going on. I ended up getting really mad (what else is new), like shaking with anger mad, and bawling. I felt and still feel really awful and messed up and I don't want to play the victim, but this is not my fault and I hate everything that's happening.
Aaaaargh.
I got candy, though. William gave me a huge portion of his candy, which was way nice. Some bastard threw an egg at him. >:P That made me really mad. I like how like 20 years ago you could go trick-or-treating without your parents and be completely safe, but now there's retards throwing eggs and crap.
I don't want to offend any gay people, but honestly, the word "faggot" SOUNDS like a really bad insult. I hate what it means, but if I'm mad at somebody, I would probably call them a faggot because it embodies anger pretty well. Who even thought up the faggot = gay thing? That's so lame. In England, it means cigarette or a bundle of sticks.
French sucks big time. Bla bla bla, no one gets it, no one cares either, and all we're learning is "Racism is bad" and how that somehow relates to sex and autism. WTH? WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH FRENCH??? IF I WANT TO GO TO AFRICA WHEN I'M OLDER, I NEED TO SPEAK THE FREAKING LANGUAGE, NOT SPEW OUT SOME BULL ABOUT RACISM AND SEX!!!!!!!!
Aaaaaargh. Just AAAAAAAAARGH. HOLY CRAP!!! Yes, I realize that was a lot of whining, a lot of, "Awwww, I'm a fourteen year old white girl with big social problems," and, "Why can't anyone heeeeelp meeeee?" So, I guess I'm sorry, but I'm really tired of disappointments. I really thought this was supposed to be a good year.
14 SUCKS.

Sinkhole de Mayo

What a lovely Saturday.
Woke up. Had breakfast. HARVEST MOON. Did my chores. Lunch. Shower. Do more chores. Read Bible. HARVEST MOON. Reading. Dinner. And my parents are watching "Sabrina" (the Audrey Hepburn version), but I couldn't bear to.
We tried to watch "Happily N'ever After" so I could show them how awful it was, but it wouldn't work on our Xbox.
Man, we need to get a DVD player.
And a bunch of DVDs.
GASP! WISHLIST!

DVD Wishlist
1. Eragon (Best B-movie ever)
2. Cinderella Story (Especially watching it in French)
3. Shrek 1 & 2 (even tho the second on is so much better)
4. Take the Lead (Rock = swoon)
5. Princess Bride (how can I not own this movie?)
6. Moulin Rouge (or maybe I'll just rent it just to see it)
7. Willow (That movie makes me cry)
8. Hidden Secrets (fun to make fun of... Rachael Lampa does not rock.)

Ew, wth? I'm ORANGE?
WHY AM I ALWAYS ORANGE!!!!!

You Are an Orange Rose

You represent desire and enthusiasm Your vibe: Sexy yet familiar Falling in love with you: happens instantly - it's a fast ride

What Color Rose Are You?

*sigh*
Harvest Moon is okay. I'm almost done with summer (hallelujah).
I have to get my taste buds right for Africa.
Speaking of Africa, there was a plane crash in Kenya. :(
I literally crossed myself when I saw it on the news. Soooo sad.

Don't poke the penguin

Man. Today could've been a really good day. And it was good when we went out to Ruby Tuesday's with my grandma. It was good when we went to the immunization clinic and it didn't hurt.
But it's just been one of those days.
And the fact that I had this MAJOR mood swing doesn't help.
Lest I bite someone else's head off, here is another warning from the government.

WARNING: Stay away from Lauren. She bites.
If she is in a BAD MOOD, do not feel you have to comfort her, as she will kill you/kick you in the balls/bite your head off.
If she is in a good mood while talking about a sensitive topic, it is best not to smash her dreams into billions of tiny bits, as this will send her into a bad mood, and she wil kill you/kick you in the balls/bite your head off.
Actually, don't talk to her at all, seeing as she is a girl and when she has a mood swing might kill you/kick you in the balls/bite your head off.

There, got that out of my system.
It's just that my parents don't support my single parenting plan. It's not even like I'm going to go out and get pregnant. I'm going to move to Georgia, go to Africa for missions, and adopt from South Africa...or Uganda. But I thought they were cool with it and they're NOT.
And then my mom gave me this huge lecture on how God will use your dreams, bla bla bla, and it was like she was rubbing in the fact that she's closer to God than I am. And it made me mad because no, God and i aren't close, I'm still working on trusting him, and since like a week ago I was almost practically atheist, it's not like I've taking any time to get on my knees and be all humble and crap, "Oh God, I know you will do PERFECTLY, so here are all my hopes and dreams for the future, and I shall go skipping away and not worry about anything because life is PERFECT!" Uh yeah, maybe in Christy freaking Miller.
It just WASN'T COOL.
So I guess I'm over it and I'm talking to God about the future, but the worst part about the whole conversation is my mom acted like that plan wasn't BIG, Like I could do SOOOO Much better.
HELLO?
At least it's better than LIVING WITH YOU GUYS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, like I thought 4 MONTHS AGO when I had NOTHING BETTER TO DO. And I'm not planning on living in Washington forever. I'm moving SOOOO far away it's not even funny. 2733.14 miles it not something to laugh at. And then I'm going to AFRICA, where I'll need like 5 SHOTS. And I'm going to be a WRITER, writing more than CRAPPY Christian fiction where stupid morons talk about their perfect lives, eat frozen yogurt, and their biggest sin is saying, "Poopy doop."
But SCREW THAT.
Bitter?
No.
Just mad as heck.
So I guess I'm not over it.
I also realized I hate the word "dreams". Sounds mystical and retarded.
But don't call my stupid "dreams" small. Because this is BIG for me.
I think this day is bad because I was going to wake up super early so I could download all the new FOB I got onto my Ipod, but I can't wake up early cuz I'm not a morning person, so I played Mario instead, and then my stupid computer wouldn't let me import, so I had to burn it all to the harddrive instead, and THEN import, and I almost had all the info on Take This To YOur Grave done, but it didn't save cuz it's LAME. Not like my grandpa's cpu is so much better, which is what I'm typing on. THe shift key keeps sticking and I keep using quotations instead of apostrophes. Gr.

No, I don't actually know what that means

My mom said it was okay for non-Catholic Christians to cross themselves, because they believe in Jesus and the Holy Trinity. Which is cool. But then again, I don't actually know what crossing yourself stands for EXACTLY.
Interesting...
Bobby Michaels was at our church today. He. Is. So. Cool. He's a musicianary (music missionary? Yeah, that was kind of easy to figure out). I kind of really feel called to do what he's doing. First stop: AFRICA. Uganda, I think, South Africa, don't exactly know where. And maybe Cuba, if I can get in. My mom thinks I feel for AFrica like she does for Japan.
She doesn't like Joe Trohman. How's that for a non-sequiter?
Not that good... I'm working on it.
Might possibly start writing my soap again? I don't know, I'm bored. If I ever have time, I'll write a little.
Lalala. I need to play trombone.
ANDY HURLEY IS STRAIGHT EDGE!
Weird...